to this...
sometimes it seems like only yesterday when the nurse placed her in my arms, this precious little baby girl. i remember the awe i felt, and this overwhelming feeling of motherly love for her that filled my heart, an indescribable feeling really. such a beautiful baby girl.
now she's a beautiful 5 year old. an independent little girl, who likes to do almost everything herself. a girly girl who is still into princesses, dress up, play make up (or putting make up on mommy), barbies, ballet, gymnastics, and justin bieber. she likes to cook in her toy kitchen and make us toy dinners. she loves to help me bake or cook, and likes to help me clean... except for picking up her own toys. apparently that is boring cleaning. she talks a lot and asks lots of questions. she is a great big sister... sometimes. she can be very shy at first, but once she opens up, she is nonstop. she's a big sweetheart...
... and now cici is in school *sniff sniff. i admit, my eyes watered up on her first day of school. i couldn't help myself. i just couldn't believe this day was here. where did the time go?
so the day started with me walking into her room singing a wake up song... something she just moans to, an oh-my-gosh-mom-please-go-away-and-let-me-sleep-some-more kind of moan. i kept singing and tickling her, "wake up wake up, today is school!" i would say. a couple more moans, a smile, and a laugh later, she was awake and ready to get the day started.
we got cleaned up, had a nutritious breakfast, i packed her lunch, made sure everything in her back pack was in perfect order. cici got dressed while i finished taking care of the babies, then we did her hair, all the while talking about the whats and what-not-to-dos in school. finally we were all ready, and daddy came home from work. drew was able to get off early enough so that he would be able to share this big day with cici. we were so happy that he was able to be here!
i of course had to get those "first day of school" pics, so before we left, i snapped away...
my girly girl, complete with her princess back pack, her tinkerbell lunchbox (a birthday gift from her friend cha cha) and her retro cinderella shirt from target. she chose the back pack and shirt herself...
pictures with daddy...
and mommy...
bye bye sissy...
and off we went...
we drove to the school, and after multiple hugs and kisses from mommy and daddy, i walked her to the school building...
we walked in, not really knowing what to expect, and someone showed us to the cafeteria. they have the students eat lunch first (she's in the pm session, so her class doesn't start til 10:55) i sat her down on the table she was assigned to, and noticed that cici was getting nervous. she then grabbed my hand and told me that she didn't want do this, that she wanted to be with me, and her big brown eyes pooled up. it took everything in me not to cry. after big hugs, and talks of reassurement, i told cici she could do it, and that i had to go. it was hard to let go of her hand, but i did, and i walked away. she had lost sight of me, while i realized that i was allowed to stay until lunch was over. so i stood near a wall and watched her. she didn't know it though, and i watched as she opened her lunchbox and started eating. she looks so little, i thought. she is a brave little girl though, and i knew she could do this. i took my camera and took a few pics...
she still had tears in her eyes when i took this pic. it looks like she is looking at me, but she is not...
she was looking at her surroundings, and all the kids sitting around her. i wondered what was going on that little head of hers as she ate...
she finally spotted me, and gave me a sweet smile (the pic came out blurry though=/)...
here is another one...
drew and the boys had stayed out in the car, and i decided to go get them so they can see cici. i knew they would like that. cici was excited to see all of us, and i think it comforted her to know we were still there. she ate up all her lunch, while giving us big smiles in between. i wanted her to know we were there, but i didn't want to hover, i wanted her to do everything herself. we watched as she packed everything back together in her lunchbox when she got done, asked her assistant teacher where the trash was, and watched as she got in line to go to her class. i couldn't stop thinking how little she looked... my baby girl. i was so proud of her though. we watched until her class turned a corner and couldn't see her anymore. she was able to get a wave in, as did we. then we left.
it was weird to leave cici like that. i like the fact that her class is half day, so she is only in school for 3 hours. those 3 hours seemed long though. i couldn't wait til she got home, so i could hear all about her day. she had told us that she wanted to experience the bus, so we decided to let her ride it home. she had talked about wanting to ride a schoolbus ever since she was 3 years old. the bus finally came, and my heart beat so fast as she walked down the steps, and into my arms. i missed her so much! she was so excited to be home, and kept hugging everybody over and over again.
"i had fun at school!" cici exclaimed. she likes her teacher. she showed us how you're supposed to raise your hand and wave a closed fist in the air when you need to go potty. she met some nice friends. she got to sing the alphabet. already she seemed a little more grown up, although it could've been my imagination. "i'm so sorry mommy, but i forgot my folder," she said with a sad face. i told her it was alright, but to try not to forget it again, because there might be important stuff in it from the teacher. today makes the third day of school, and she still hasn't remembered, haha. we'll have to do something about that.
that was cici's first day of kindergarten. i'm sure we'll adapt to this way of life and this new routine soon enough, but for now it still seems weird that i will be sending my daughter off to school 5 days a week. i don't quite enjoy the idea of her being away, and am even considering homeschooling her next year for various reasons, but i am looking forward to her telling me everything she learns this school year. i hope to volunteer as much as i can at the school, and stay involved.
she had a great first day, and i hope that rest of the school year is filled with lots of learning and fun stuff!
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I love it Dianna... wish I can make an awesome blog like this!
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